Observing your mind

In order to effectively reprogram your mind, you need to be able to observe how your mind works. You need to know what's going on in your head. You need to see those internal processes. Otherwise, you'd be acting in blind, which is not a good idea. You also need to learn to see the actual programs behind those processes.

It is much easier, for example, to observe "I'm stressed, because I worry what other people might think about me", than to precisely decode the programming structure that causes this state. To observe one's thoughts, feelings, and emotions, a usual introspection is completely enough. It just requires practice and self-honesty.

To see the actual programs it's something different. (Or maybe it isn't. Maybe it also just requires practice. I don't know. I wish I could be more helpful.) For me, seeing programs is something on another level. I remember, when I started seeing mind programs, it was like entering another dimension. Like opening a hidden layer of my mind, where everything is just written in plain sight, ready for me to read.
And it was frustrating. In one moment I could see, that all my spiritual knowledge, all understanding of myself that I gained over the years, most of that was bullshit. It was frustrating to see that all the hard work that I've put into understanding myself, brought me to the wrong conclusions. I needed time to get used to the idea, that now I can see how it really works and that it is much more reliable than the analysis of my thoughts and behavior.

Now I call it "sliding on the surface" when someone is drawing conclusions based on the external analysis. People who talk about psychology do this all the time. They just slide on the surface and never seem to reach the core issues.

But at the same time, those two levels are very connected. When I observe my thoughts and feelings, I can just trace them back to fundamental mind programs like I was pulling a string. I just follow the stream and I see what is there. This way I can map out whole dependency trees.
So maybe this isn't that different. But maybe this is some kind of an extrasensory ability and not everybody can learn it. I don't know. Maybe it is an individual matter?


As an exercise, to observe your mind, I want you to think about how your mind generally works. Do you use words when you think? Do you think in images? Are they in color or 3D?
For me, it's fascinating, that there are for example people, who think only in images and have a difficult time putting them into words, and there are people who think only in words and can't imagine thinking in images. Although from my perspective these are just different interfaces.
I personally think in pure abstraction. Sometimes this abstraction is two dimensional, sometimes it's 3D and sometimes it doesn't have spatial dimensions. I use words, but I don't rely on them. Even if I imagine a picture or a scene, I don't see it in color. It's difficult for me to imagine colors.

Another exercise: what is 11 x 12? Of course, the answer is 132, but I want you to trace your thought processes of getting to this answer. Get as many details as you can. Do you see the digits? Do you see colors? Do you use spatial dimensions?

The last one: take two random pictures on the Internet and decide which one you like more. Now look inside yourself and find out why you like this one more. What processes inside yourself those two pictures activate?