I've removed a lot of useless stuff from my mind lately. I've also made some very fundamental changes. I'll try to describe one of them because for the past few weeks I've been catching myself doing things the old way and changing it into the new way has been very transformative for me. But I'm afraid that I won't be able to describe it in a way that could be useful to anybody. I mean the mechanism itself is very simple, but if somebody explained it to me a few months ago, I'm not sure I could observe it in my mind. Some things can't be explained, they need to be experienced.
I hate that words are useless for describing mind programs. I try the best I can to put my perspective into words, but then I read what I've just written and it sounds flat and meaningless.
I realized that I try to create things that don't exist, but I try to do it in a way that is unlikely to succeed. This can apply to things like finding a job, having a group of friends, or having a positive impact on the world. But it can also be about something more subtle like trying to create a feeling of self-worth or safety. It comes from the idea that things "should" be in a certain way. But if it is not realistic to make things how they "should" be, it creates a lot of tension.
It is much better to accept things how they are. Start from there and to choose from what is available.
I also do it the other way. I try to remove things from my life, or from my mind, that exist, but I do it in a way that is unlikely to succeed.
It's OK if you have a plan and then you implement this plan and it's done. It worked and your life is now better.
But if you don't see any clear way to accomplish what you want, when you just want to impose your vision on reality without any realistic plan, then you just detach yourself from reality.
People do this all the time. They want to find love, have a lot of money, be respected by other people. But if those things are not available to them, they get lost in the pursuit of those things and in endless despair.
Most people don't understand what's wrong with this way of thinking. I didn't until recently. But now I see that it's much better to simply let things be than to be stuck in a failed attempt to achieve the impossible.
When I read what I've just written it sounds like some obvious truths stated in a typical coaching way. But for me, it's a mind-blowing algorithm. Every time I catch myself trying to do things the old way my mind is completely blown. Then I have to apply the new algorithm and readjust how my whole mind works. I have to make huge changes in my personality and transform myself on a very fundamental level. Thanks to this, I feel much more alive and connected to reality.
I don't know how to put it into words.
How to express that for me it's a very specific mechanism and not just some smooth talk? That when I replace the old algorithm with the new one amazing things happen.
How to describe how I feel after that? When huge old structures are demolished and I feel a fresh breeze new life blowing my way. When I sit in silence for an hour, completely amazed by the life itself.
Words are useless for this.
For me, it's definitely much easier to reprogram my mind than to write about it.